生死存亡，在一個人來說，最重要不過了。
這一刻最重要的，當然是她的平安和早日的康復。明天早上 11 時 45 分開始，請切切代禱。
其他的事情，在這一刻都不再重要了。還有甚麼比起生命重要？還有甚麼比起健康重要？或者會有人不會認同，或者會有人有其他的想法，在我們來說，這一刻，沒有任何一件東西/一個人/一起事件比起她的健康和康復來得重要。
所以，請無關痛癢的人/事情/事件都暫且遠離我們，讓我們好有精力和可以集中精神的處理和應付當前最重要的吧。
坦白說的是，某些人的來電，總是帶給我們不安和「不分輕重」的感覺。正如我所說，還有其他的事比起生命和健康重要嗎？這麼簡單的問題，在這些人撥電話之前沒有想過嗎？你這麼的行為和說話，令我對你作為團導領袖而感到失望，而且是「睇死你」那一種的失望！
我明白近來的事情或許是帶有試鍊的味道，但我相信，試鍊本身不是重點，而是在面對苦難的同時，神賜給我們平安和信心，讓我們經歷祂的慈愛、恩典和醫治大能。可不可以，以牧養和鼓勵的角度幫助肢體成長/面對？這都不是籍口呢 .......
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Sunday, April 24, 2005
The new OM
As you may remember that I mentioned my new OM in my previous post ... the first image was not good - just because of smoking.
However, after 2 days of meeting, I had completely new understanding of him, and he did give me good feeling, friendly, hopes and vision of future! Well ..... although it was too late for me, I still hope all of my colleagues would be doing good with him.
He is a good boss and worth for us to work hard for. Following him is a good chance to develop and expand our horizon! I am sure if you could come one or two months earlier, I will not leave Getronics that easy ...
However, after 2 days of meeting, I had completely new understanding of him, and he did give me good feeling, friendly, hopes and vision of future! Well ..... although it was too late for me, I still hope all of my colleagues would be doing good with him.
He is a good boss and worth for us to work hard for. Following him is a good chance to develop and expand our horizon! I am sure if you could come one or two months earlier, I will not leave Getronics that easy ...
Thursday, April 21, 2005
童話
童話 光良
如果下載太慢的話，可以試試這裡。
今天晚上，我一個人在家，哭得很厲害 ...
曲：光良 詞：光良 編曲：Taichi Nakamura
製作人：光良、陳建良
忘了有多久 再沒聽到你 對我說你最愛的故事
我想了很久 我開始慌了 是不是我又做錯了甚麼
你哭著對我說 童話裡都是騙人的 我不可能是你的王子
也許你不會懂 從你說愛我以後 我的天空星星都亮了
我願變成童話裡 你愛的那個天使
張開雙手 變成翅膀守護你
你要相信 相信我們會像童話故事裡
幸福和快樂是結局
我要變成童話裡 你愛的那個天使
張開雙手 變成翅膀守護你
你要相信 相信我們會像童話故事裡
幸福和快樂是結局
我會變成童話裡 你愛的那個天使
張開雙手 變成翅膀守護你
你要相信 相信我們會像童話故事裡
幸福和快樂是結局 一起寫我們的結局
Monday, April 18, 2005
It was a hard time for me
It was a hard time for me today when I was back to office to have short meeting with my new operation manager. Today was the first time I meet with him.
Since there was no room for us, he brought me to the only smoking area of my office, and he quickly "finished" two cigarettes within 5 minutes. After the meeting, I was feeling headache and suffocating.
So, the first image of this operation manager was not good.
He is really new to my company, and I am just thinking if he could work on this position for more than 3 months .... or less?? Don't know.
Since there was no room for us, he brought me to the only smoking area of my office, and he quickly "finished" two cigarettes within 5 minutes. After the meeting, I was feeling headache and suffocating.
So, the first image of this operation manager was not good.
He is really new to my company, and I am just thinking if he could work on this position for more than 3 months .... or less?? Don't know.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Thursday, April 14, 2005
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
手提電話轉台
使用了超過 6 年的 One2Free 因為未有提供吸引的 GPRS 流動數據組合，所以我決定將會於 7 月 5 日開始轉用其他網絡供應商。
當然， 3 是絕對不會考慮的（即使是完全免費也不會領情），入選的供應商包括 Peoples 及 Smartone 。最遲會在 7 月 4 日作出決定。
當然， 3 是絕對不會考慮的（即使是完全免費也不會領情），入選的供應商包括 Peoples 及 Smartone 。最遲會在 7 月 4 日作出決定。
和記電訊的廣告
和記電訊有一個廣告，由黎明主拍，講述女主角在機場門口大把大把打落黎明的臉上，然後一句話都不說便走了。
看到這裡，只有令我對和記電訊的反感不斷增加。一句不問便打下去了，這要比起任何一個野螿的人更無理。
看到這裡，只有令我對和記電訊的反感不斷增加。一句不問便打下去了，這要比起任何一個野螿的人更無理。
Time for Waiting
Human being is spending too much time on waiting: waiting for dinner/lunch, waiting for dates, waiting for payroll, waiting for transporations, waiting for business deals .... all people keeps waiting for something to happen.
Well ... I am a romantic person, I see waiting as an art. During the waiting, I could imagine what it will be, and how I will react. Also I could think what will be the next thing I could wait, and then how I could prepare for my next reaction ... haha, really endless thoughts.
Today I spent 2 hours in waiting for 4 testing results. Before lunch hours, I received all 4 testing results without error. Afte having lunch with my customer, I started a job of restoring a file from backup at 1420 hours, and I am still waiting the restoration to be completed ... and the most *interesting* thing is, I spent more than 40 minutes for the job status reaching 100% from 99% - and I am still waiting it to happen.
I spent a whole day in this remote and cool server testing lab, alone. I spent almost two months in waiting for reply from my next possible employer - still expecting a good news from my mind; I spent a whole day in this server testing lab, but I could earn $684 - something I could see vaulable to me; I spent an entire year trying my best to recover relationships around me, most of the time I could do nothing but to wait ... last week I gave it up.
More and more evidences provided showing to me that waiting or expecting relationship recovery is something "it won't happen again", at least in this case. People needs reinforcement so that they could carry on and do more. I have no time to wait as a standby or substitution of someone else - as long as I am not the one, I could leave without a word.
Another reason behind my decision is very simple: cost of time for waiting is much much higher than what could be expected after the waiting and effort paid. Just very simple economical cost-benefit analysis applied. I am not going to explain more on this point.
Maybe another high cost of the waiting is, the expectation for result, which is only available after waiting, is always not fulfilled or not considered. When something unexpected happened, or expected thing never could not be done, you could only give up and try again - or never touch it again. In the past few years, I tried to pick it up again and again, because I believed in "when you are willing to do, there is always chance to make it". Now, I believe in "I am getting older and older, life is short and time is limited".
As a romantic person, as long as waiting for something is no longer joyful or creating value to my life, I will not wait for any second longer - at least I don't like to wait for someone's attention or selection.
Please give me back my time for my life. I need it.
Well ... I am a romantic person, I see waiting as an art. During the waiting, I could imagine what it will be, and how I will react. Also I could think what will be the next thing I could wait, and then how I could prepare for my next reaction ... haha, really endless thoughts.
Today I spent 2 hours in waiting for 4 testing results. Before lunch hours, I received all 4 testing results without error. Afte having lunch with my customer, I started a job of restoring a file from backup at 1420 hours, and I am still waiting the restoration to be completed ... and the most *interesting* thing is, I spent more than 40 minutes for the job status reaching 100% from 99% - and I am still waiting it to happen.
I spent a whole day in this remote and cool server testing lab, alone. I spent almost two months in waiting for reply from my next possible employer - still expecting a good news from my mind; I spent a whole day in this server testing lab, but I could earn $684 - something I could see vaulable to me; I spent an entire year trying my best to recover relationships around me, most of the time I could do nothing but to wait ... last week I gave it up.
More and more evidences provided showing to me that waiting or expecting relationship recovery is something "it won't happen again", at least in this case. People needs reinforcement so that they could carry on and do more. I have no time to wait as a standby or substitution of someone else - as long as I am not the one, I could leave without a word.
Another reason behind my decision is very simple: cost of time for waiting is much much higher than what could be expected after the waiting and effort paid. Just very simple economical cost-benefit analysis applied. I am not going to explain more on this point.
Maybe another high cost of the waiting is, the expectation for result, which is only available after waiting, is always not fulfilled or not considered. When something unexpected happened, or expected thing never could not be done, you could only give up and try again - or never touch it again. In the past few years, I tried to pick it up again and again, because I believed in "when you are willing to do, there is always chance to make it". Now, I believe in "I am getting older and older, life is short and time is limited".
As a romantic person, as long as waiting for something is no longer joyful or creating value to my life, I will not wait for any second longer - at least I don't like to wait for someone's attention or selection.
Please give me back my time for my life. I need it.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
群體生活
群體生活本身是學問，單單是溝通和表達自己，經已可以開辦一門學科了。
有人的地方就會有人的問題，當你走得愈高，看到愈多的時候，自然會感到高處的可怕 ... 還有身邊的人，無論是哪一個，其實與每一個人都一樣，一樣的可怕。
Monday, April 11, 2005
Third Interview
Tonight it will be the third interview, and I will be interviewing with the MIS director.
Well ... although you may already see difference on my daily livings, at least I have already prepared for the change and get ready to adopt into the new environment, it may be, as Minnelli said, too early to prepare and make changes.
Please pray for me, for my performance and may God give me wisdom in the interview.
Well ... although you may already see difference on my daily livings, at least I have already prepared for the change and get ready to adopt into the new environment, it may be, as Minnelli said, too early to prepare and make changes.
Please pray for me, for my performance and may God give me wisdom in the interview.
貧窮生活
今天晚上很早便回到家，看到鏗鏘集，訪問一些貧窮的家庭，好一些小朋友的成長，很有感慨。
家裡沒有錢，或者因為綜援可以得三餐溫飽，但小朋友的成長還有很多其他的東西呢！很簡單的自尊，就似乎經已是很難維護到了。
最後的一位小妹妹說，大約意思是：南亞海嘯和好多非洲國家的兒童就連三餐溫飽都有困難，我有得食，又有得住，家裡又沒有漏水，經已很好的了。另一位小朋友說：我希望可以學彈鋼琴，登登登登登登登登，你話好唔好聽？
這兩句話，深觸我心。
生活歷史
我終於都記起了為甚麼我希望有一部好的手提電話，除了給我有 PDA 的功能，方便我的日常工作和生活外，亦要有簡單的拍攝功能，從而提供足夠解像度的影象讓我可以隨時記錄生活。
這樣的想法，是與一套在 Discovery Channel 播出的記錄片有關的。那套記錄片談及人類的記憶，嘗試找出人為何會記得事件、腦部是如何的運作，和部份腦部受損後人類如何復原。
其中談及一位在英國的男人，他因為交通意外而腦部受損，他在意外前的所有東西和事件都記得一清二楚，但在意外後的所有東西都不能記住──即是新的事件不能「記憶」在腦裡。他只好隨身帶備錄音筆和筆記簿，每天或定時把所見所聞都即時錄下或記下來，好讓他日後能「記得」這些事。
想到如果自己是這樣的不幸的話，我必定不能工作，就連生活也會成很大的問題 ...... 但回想一下，我在讀大學的時候不是曾經有一段時間經常忘記新的事物嗎？所以我很重視生活記錄，不論是光與影的、聲音的、形體的或者是文字的記錄，我都重視。因為它們全都是我的生活歷史，都是我的過去。
這樣的想法，是與一套在 Discovery Channel 播出的記錄片有關的。那套記錄片談及人類的記憶，嘗試找出人為何會記得事件、腦部是如何的運作，和部份腦部受損後人類如何復原。
其中談及一位在英國的男人，他因為交通意外而腦部受損，他在意外前的所有東西和事件都記得一清二楚，但在意外後的所有東西都不能記住──即是新的事件不能「記憶」在腦裡。他只好隨身帶備錄音筆和筆記簿，每天或定時把所見所聞都即時錄下或記下來，好讓他日後能「記得」這些事。
想到如果自己是這樣的不幸的話，我必定不能工作，就連生活也會成很大的問題 ...... 但回想一下，我在讀大學的時候不是曾經有一段時間經常忘記新的事物嗎？所以我很重視生活記錄，不論是光與影的、聲音的、形體的或者是文字的記錄，我都重視。因為它們全都是我的生活歷史，都是我的過去。
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Microsoft Hardware
告訴你，我家裡有甚麼 Microsoft 的 hardware ，你或者會知道我除了是傻之外，其實 ... 都不算是窮：
Microsoft Mouse (按購買時序)
- Microsoft Wheel Mouse (最少四只，全已損毀並棄掉)
- Microsoft Wheel Optical (轉贈朋友)
- Microsoft IntelliMouse Optical (轉贈朋友)
- Microsoft Wireless Optical Mouse (共有兩只，伺服器共用及供明月使用)
- Microsoft IntelliMouse Explorer (閒置)
- Microsoft Wireless IntelliMouse Explorer (於家裡自用)
- Microsoft Optical Mouse Blue (放到客戶辦公室裡自用)
- Microsoft Wireless Notebook Optical Mouse (隨身自用)
Microsoft Keyboard (按購買時序)
回想起來，隨了 keyboard 在 1995 年至 1997 年使用 Acer OEM Keyboard 之外，印象裡並沒有再使用過其他品牌的 keyboard 或 mouse 了。
叔叔昨天逝世
身處於祖家，爸爸異父異母的弟弟，於 2005 年 4 月 9 日早上於家中睡覺時逝世。
暫時知道的，或者是為他生平喝太多酒的原故，慢性中毒而死。
在祖家的親人將會為他舉行簡單的身後事。
我和他多年來也只是見過一面，沒有談過一句說話，更談不上有甚甚感情呢。反而令我想到他的太太和兩個小朋友，太太似是有點精神問題，兩個小朋友則聽聞讀書很聰明，或是可造之材。不過，我們暫時都不知道可以和應該如何處理，所以仍然沒有甚麼計劃，更莫說是行動了。
家父和我們作子女的都不會返鄉處理這次事件，只會交與另一位叔叔代勞。
暫時知道的，或者是為他生平喝太多酒的原故，慢性中毒而死。
在祖家的親人將會為他舉行簡單的身後事。
我和他多年來也只是見過一面，沒有談過一句說話，更談不上有甚甚感情呢。反而令我想到他的太太和兩個小朋友，太太似是有點精神問題，兩個小朋友則聽聞讀書很聰明，或是可造之材。不過，我們暫時都不知道可以和應該如何處理，所以仍然沒有甚麼計劃，更莫說是行動了。
家父和我們作子女的都不會返鄉處理這次事件，只會交與另一位叔叔代勞。
512MB Mini SD Card
今天我買了一張 512MB 的 Mini SD card ，我本以為不是甚麼特別的 ...
當我把原本在那張隨手機送的 128MB Mini SD card 裡的檔案 copy 到新卡後，我發現餘下的 380MB 記憶體可以讓我拍攝 5896 幅 VGA 照片，或者 25550 幅來電大頭貼照片，或者超過 294 分鐘的短片！
似乎 upgrade 了 memory card 後，我有近乎無盡的空間拍照片和短片了！ =)
當我把原本在那張隨手機送的 128MB Mini SD card 裡的檔案 copy 到新卡後，我發現餘下的 380MB 記憶體可以讓我拍攝 5896 幅 VGA 照片，或者 25550 幅來電大頭貼照片，或者超過 294 分鐘的短片！
似乎 upgrade 了 memory card 後，我有近乎無盡的空間拍照片和短片了！ =)
非常、非常沉重的決定
我不喜歡關係的斷裂，因為這根本不是一件開心的事，不論在哪一方而言也是一樣。
不過，當關係不能再差的時候，當傷害一再的深的同時，我不能做些事情，保護自己。
2005 年 4 月 10 日的凌晨，我作了這樣的決定：把她放棄了。
請你離開我的心懷，請你不要再傷害我和我所愛的人，也，請你，不要為我的歷史增加不必要的灰色──它經已是很灰很灰的了。
或者她不會明白為何會有這樣的決定，也不明白她在哪些時候傷害了我和我身邊的人，不過這些因由都不再重要了。因為決定是這樣的下了，或者，是沒有甚麼可以做的了。
我不會直接的告訴她我有這樣的決定，因為她知道與否根本都不再重要，最重要的是我不會再為她的事而上心，也討厭再在被動的位置不斷的受傷了。傷害得太多但又不想傷害別人的時候，我沒有辦法，只好盡力護自己。
沒有錯，即使她親口問我，我也不會回應。真的，真的是因為，她知道與否，都經已不再重要了。所以，即使你正在讀這篇文章，不要猶疑，不要猜度，是你不是你，真的不再重要；不用問我是不是你，也不用問我是哪些事情使我受傷，也不用想如何補救了。
不過，當關係不能再差的時候，當傷害一再的深的同時，我不能做些事情，保護自己。
2005 年 4 月 10 日的凌晨，我作了這樣的決定：把她放棄了。
請你離開我的心懷，請你不要再傷害我和我所愛的人，也，請你，不要為我的歷史增加不必要的灰色──它經已是很灰很灰的了。
或者她不會明白為何會有這樣的決定，也不明白她在哪些時候傷害了我和我身邊的人，不過這些因由都不再重要了。因為決定是這樣的下了，或者，是沒有甚麼可以做的了。
我不會直接的告訴她我有這樣的決定，因為她知道與否根本都不再重要，最重要的是我不會再為她的事而上心，也討厭再在被動的位置不斷的受傷了。傷害得太多但又不想傷害別人的時候，我沒有辦法，只好盡力護自己。
沒有錯，即使她親口問我，我也不會回應。真的，真的是因為，她知道與否，都經已不再重要了。所以，即使你正在讀這篇文章，不要猶疑，不要猜度，是你不是你，真的不再重要；不用問我是不是你，也不用問我是哪些事情使我受傷，也不用想如何補救了。
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