Time for Waiting

Human being is spending too much time on waiting: waiting for dinner/lunch, waiting for dates, waiting for payroll, waiting for transporations, waiting for business deals .... all people keeps waiting for something to happen.

Well ... I am a romantic person, I see waiting as an art. During the waiting, I could imagine what it will be, and how I will react. Also I could think what will be the next thing I could wait, and then how I could prepare for my next reaction ... haha, really endless thoughts.

Today I spent 2 hours in waiting for 4 testing results. Before lunch hours, I received all 4 testing results without error. Afte having lunch with my customer, I started a job of restoring a file from backup at 1420 hours, and I am still waiting the restoration to be completed ... and the most *interesting* thing is, I spent more than 40 minutes for the job status reaching 100% from 99% - and I am still waiting it to happen.

I spent a whole day in this remote and cool server testing lab, alone. I spent almost two months in waiting for reply from my next possible employer - still expecting a good news from my mind; I spent a whole day in this server testing lab, but I could earn $684 - something I could see vaulable to me; I spent an entire year trying my best to recover relationships around me, most of the time I could do nothing but to wait ... last week I gave it up.

More and more evidences provided showing to me that waiting or expecting relationship recovery is something "it won't happen again", at least in this case. People needs reinforcement so that they could carry on and do more. I have no time to wait as a standby or substitution of someone else - as long as I am not the one, I could leave without a word.

Another reason behind my decision is very simple: cost of time for waiting is much much higher than what could be expected after the waiting and effort paid. Just very simple economical cost-benefit analysis applied. I am not going to explain more on this point.

Maybe another high cost of the waiting is, the expectation for result, which is only available after waiting, is always not fulfilled or not considered. When something unexpected happened, or expected thing never could not be done, you could only give up and try again - or never touch it again. In the past few years, I tried to pick it up again and again, because I believed in "when you are willing to do, there is always chance to make it". Now, I believe in "I am getting older and older, life is short and time is limited".

As a romantic person, as long as waiting for something is no longer joyful or creating value to my life, I will not wait for any second longer - at least I don't like to wait for someone's attention or selection.

Please give me back my time for my life. I need it.